Aragir Norde/Journal

Delbellis

[17-07-2021]

Through her gentle demeanor and her willingness to support, she is gaining his trust rather quickly. He still wishes to pet her one day.

"Be it through martial arts, surprising excellence in the brewing of potions [note: further information might be favourable for research] or her seemingly calm demeanor that could potentially diffuse a tense situation within the group, she has so far proven to be benevolent. Even though she has been a tad overexcited in the past. I am not quite certain about her true motives still- but that makes two of us, does it not?"

[01-08-2021]

The stubbornness that she showed recently came unexpectedly.

"When I saw this awful wound on her it gave me such a fright that I thought she would not make it for a moment, yet she seemed surprisingly vigorous still. She has shown me a different side of her today, and I fear I may have misjudged her a little. There seems to be a strong sense of solidarity that I cannot help but admire, even though my own nerves got the better of me."

[28-08-2021] (Written during Session 17 )

"For one reason or another, her luck is such that she continues to bear the brunt of our battles, and yet afterwards she does not quite seem as affected as one would expect when facing such ordeals. Is this what it means to have the strong mind of a monk?

Though her optimism seems to be a good catalyst for building the trust this group will need in its path forward, I feel I should be vigilant that her spirit remains in good health as well."

Cynic

[17-07-2021]

His feelings about Cynic are ambivalent at best. There are times where their thinking aligns, and he can sense some connection that pleases him, but at other times he strongly disagrees with the choices he makes.

"Regardless of his eminently poor decisions, some of his actions seem to contradict his displayed aloofness. This leads me to think he is easily misled rather than a rogue at heart. I fail to see where we could possibly see eye to eye, but I was pleasantly surprised to observe him supporting Delbellis in combat.

In a way, his decisive nature has also on occasion saved me from Cerrule's barrage of questions and comments, and I wish I had had the fortitude to thank him for that."

[01-08-2021]

Cynic's choices continue to stand opposite of what Aragir believes in.

"After questioning him he confessed to me that he had made a blood oath to join the Getaways, and for but a moment I lost my temper. How can this man be such a fool? 'For his own good, I would like to believe he was tricked.”

[28-08-2021] (Written during Session 17 )

"Despite his seemingly rash decision-making that, on occasion, reminds me of that of a young boy rather than a man, I continue to see elements of a more remarkable side coming to the surface. His graceful descent into Myrneas spurred a hint of envy in me, and his sleight of hand to retrieve the vestige was equally impressive. I would not have known his intent were it not for my already present suspicion.

However foolish it may have been of him to try out such a potentially dangerous artifact without knowing the consequences, his curiosity is something I can relate to.

Perhaps he will make a fine candidate for future research."

Cerrule

[17-07-2021]

Though her supportive nature continues to give him some sense of trust, her inquisitive and somewhat confronting behaviour towards him as of late strangely both intrigue and intimidate him.

"There are many quips to be had about which of us is more suspicious than the other, but what truly interests me is what drives her so that she can no longer see me as an individual, but as the institution I come from.'Of course, some animosity towards an establishment both so famous and enigmatic is inevitable. However, Cerrule does not strike me as an individual who would seek to destroy the balance the Academy has protected for centuries.'Her occasionally abrasive tendencies can make it rather difficult to form coherent thoughts, and, admittedly, it was more fun when I was not the objective of her scorn.

Perhaps her personality, too, is like the wind."

[01-08-2021]

Cerrule remains somewhat of an enigma to him.

"When confronted about her strong distaste for the Academy, she gave me an answer that I found difficult to fully believe. Though it might very well be that the Academy has been compromised somehow, how can I truly believe her when she tells me her judgements are solely based on her dreams?

Though the idea of this proud establishment floating in the sky is intriguing, and not completely out of the realm of possibilities, I would have to make a better assessment of her claimed clairvoyance before I am ready to accept what she has told me.

It is strange that she would think it is the responsibility of the Academy to intervene with the myriad amount of problems that occur on the field, however. It has ever been our pledge to record, learn and prevent.

Nevertheless, it was a pleasant change of events when she calmed down, and I daresay at some moments we might even have been on the same page."

[28-08-2021] (Written during Session 17 )

"It seems she is starting to learn how to cast her objections towards the Academy aside when she interacts with me, and it is then that I once again see glimpses of what I assume is her contrastingly pacifist nature. Of course, I realise that it is exactly because of this nature that she feels compelled to act out against the things she strongly disagrees with, even when I yet fail to see the connection.

She was right to call me out on my hasty response towards the spectre that ambushed us. I admit that I was frightened, and she managed to bring me back to my senses. I might not have learned the things I know now had it not been for her."

Personal Notes:

[28-08-2021] (Written during Session 17 )

"I can see that the group is starting to grow a little closer, through no particular effort of my own; Cooperation seems to go a little more smoothly, there is more communication and, quite frankly, I did not at all expect them to stand behind me when we faced my brother.

By the Gods, I am starting to like them. This group, so interesting and diverse it could represent the very essence of the Adventurer's Guild that enchanted me.

I feel I should be glad for this. After all, we cannot possibly hope to go on a lengthy journey in the company of those we cannot trust.

And yet I feel conflicted.

What does it mean to trust? Is it possible to trust whilst keeping them at a safe distance? Will they be able to trust me if I cannot let them in?

I am well aware that it takes trust to gain it, but even should this path lead to a fortunate end, they will be gone long before my time in this world is over. And so the budding connection I feel with these individuals is one I defensively wish to discard before it is too late.

I have never quite understood how my kin deals with this when they choose to let in those who are shorter-lived than us, though now that I am in the middle of this dilemma the wish for counsel has never felt greater.

Alduin, do you still see those you have lost in your memories at night?"

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